tIMe fOr my§elf*

2006-04-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

hello start.

errgh. i shouldnt. i shouldnt have done it. tellin him almost half of the shit that i've been through. its suppose to be slow and steady isnt it? eerrgh. help me start.

2006-04-15T21:35:00.000-07:00

hello start.

i cant wait for this year's world cup. watching 'the contender' just now on suria made me relive brazil's champion moments four years ago. green and i had gone to the padang to support brazil. later that evening, the two of us grew into the 7 or 8 of us? we bump into this person, that person this person that person and soon we bacame a group. the old man who's favourite line was 'Bunuh sama dia!!!!' followed by other comments is still very much vivid in my mind. those lines were thrown at germany fans at that time. all of us were practically squeezing our ass on the padang. what do you expect when thousands of brazil fans come together. start, everyone wanted to catch a glimpse of the big screen. and when brazil finally won, we stood up!! yeay-ing here and there. i tell you start, if only you came in human form you would be jumping around
rejoicing the winning team.

so this year green and i are definitely going down again. clad in our brazillian dress code and a few face paint. since we didnt save enough money to go germany, we'll just settle for any place showing the final here in singapore. *sings brazil brazil, brazil brazil...*

2006-04-14T20:16:00.000-07:00

hello start.

guess what happen at work yesterday.

it rained cats and dogs and we only realized the ceiling was leaking after like half an hour after the rain. this is what you get. floor full of newspapers, workers turned into floor cleaners and noi snapping pictures.

kenduri later. start i'm gonna see haikal!! yey! i like times like these. you get to see cousins, relatives.. but it seemed more more fun when we were a lot more smaller. oh well, everything is much more, way fun when we were still kids. my mind is at its blank-est stage ever. my recent entries are boring and i cant seem to think of anything to write about. bear with this aight.

i'll see you later my little hang tuah. bye start. i'll save some rendang for you.

2006-04-12T22:56:00.000-07:00

hello start.

its 5 mins to two now. just came back from lunch. and so i'll finish work this sunday. then its time to parrtttaaayyy. ooh i cant wait. anyways, life has been quite a bore nowadays. i guess that's working life huh. ok i dont really have any ideas or interesting topics to talk about now. let's just keep this short and sweet. bye start.

2006-04-10T18:25:00.000-07:00

hello start.

good morning. its 24 minutes past 9 in the morning and i'm having coke light for my breakfast. whatever happen to diet coke? it state here 0g energy, 0g FAT, 0g protein & carbo. serious?!!! you got to be kidding me. anyways, computer at home is being such a bitch again. laggin.

3 more working days and i'm done!! haha, let's see what i wanna get once i get my pay.

1. new jeans.
2. flipflop
3. that bottom that i've been dying to get.
4. tops tops tops
5. get my hair re-dyed
6. body shopp stuff
7. a whole new make up set cos the old one went down the toilet bowl. sad.
8. new handbag. when was the last time i bought one? 2 years ago?!!!
9. top up the damn ez link.

ok dah. bye start.

2006-04-08T15:06:00.000-07:00

hello start.

before i start on anything, green i got something for you. but i'll post it later at the end of this post. okay some of you may have noticed that i removed some entries. the cause of it shall not be disclosed here. anyways, i've been tagged by sri. here it is girl!!

7 qualities of the ideal perfect lover;

1. understanding
2. patient
3. those who think long term
4. knows how to give & take
5. romantic
6. funny
7. someone who can get along with my family

7 people i want them to do;

1. Green again! (sabo sabo)
2. Mira again! (sabo sabo)
3. Is
4. Bob
5. Michell
6. Faith
7. Nad

ok done. haha.

this is probably the 3rd saturday i'm spending at home. i dont want to tire myself out cos its gonna be a full 6 working days next week and i seriously need some motivation to get on to it. oh i'm working tomorrow too, for 4 hours only. heh. yesterday i spend the whole journey home listening to ONE song. over and over again. all the way from kembangan to my home. just listening to marcell's 'jangan pernah berubah. crazy? hah.

here's the thing that i got for green.

ohmygod. so damn cute lah. anak siape ni. i stared at it for the whole 5 mins. This is why it is for green.

1. notice the eyes, oh my god just like green's.
2. the nose, just like her's too.
3. the baby's in green!!!
4. the snow cap, what green's been dying to wear since stone age.

so green, most probably if your baby turn out this cute.. oh my god, i'll put her up for advertisement and let her start getting popular at a tender age. bye start.

2006-04-06T21:42:00.000-07:00

hello start.

at last after like 15 minutes, the comp finally loaded the page. damn the router!! its causing all the laggin.

so today i got a day off cause i'm sick. flu, sore throat. so..what else to do at home...back to being paris hilton!! but what is paris without nicole right?!! that's when green comes in!!!! :)hehehehe. start, i seriously dont know how we are gonna adjust back to being normal. cause it is not normal leading a paris n nicole life. haha. and so we met and went shopping. green bought a new top and 3 canterbury 'is that how you spell it shorts. and i bought my masks.

start, it is so hard to lose weight. how can we put it on so easily and not shed it off easily. sigh. i guess that's how it works huh. anybody? any tips? eerrgh.

2006-04-04T20:05:00.000-07:00

hello start.

i am so bored in the office right now. i just cant adjust myself here or excel here no matter how hard i try. this place is so not for me. errgh. bye.

2006-03-30T07:47:00.000-08:00

hello start. sometimes i really wonder if i will regret not continuing my studies. i dont know start. i hate wasting time. if can, i want to make full use each and every minute of my time. it really bothers me that i dont know what i have in store for me in the future. maybe its because i'm jobless at the moment that's why i'm feeling this way. i guess if working dont work for me, then i will go for the next intake next year. why i didnt go for this year's intake? cos i blardy dont know the whole application process and i thought its like you have to wait for your results to apply. and when i got to know that it's not like that, its too late already. regrets? not at all. i believe that for every bad thing that happen, a good thing will happen too.

and so if working life works for me then i shall stay put to it. i have 2 things that i really am interested in and that is hotel line and web designing. so yeah it will be these two areas that i'll be looking for jobs. any lobangs? contact me. having lobangs do work.

and so today's sff work was okay. i am such a bitch. why? cos start, i had to bitch about someone in front of that someone's friend. so most probably if she knew about it, she will hate me. but i believe you have to take resposibilities for everything that you do. so yeah, so its okay if she hates me. no pics at the moment cos i still havent got the pics from our very dear miss green. shall post it maybe after the after party?

ok i have a feeling this is gonna be a long entry. i'm getting the flow already lah start. today was the 'Triumph' show. the models were hottttttt. i bet all the guys in there were having a blast of the time 'butt watching' and whatever that's there to watch. but hey, who can blame them. the models were hootttt. and can i squeeze in something too start? the bouncers are hott too lah. heee. bye.

2006-03-26T21:36:00.000-08:00

hello start. i must have slept at a very wrong position yesterday. my back aches. as if having leg aches isnt bad enough. hmmm, i'm really amazed at her entry. i only have this to comment.

i think you're being too sensitive. green never forget her friends, in fact she treasure all her friends. and what is this about me being a good shopping companion n all...? girl, you make it sound like in order to be green's friend you have to be a good shopping companion, have same taste in drama..etc etc etc. its nothing like that. in fact, when we were still in secondary school, green was busy doing boyband chasing and i couldnt care less. i even critized her favourite band. haha. get it? so its not about similarities and all. its more than that. trust me. green and i have gone way back since we were 13. we've seen each other grown from immature little brats to young adults now. i dont know but from the way you had written in your post just somehow show how you potray green from your very eyes.

and one thing for sure, dont feel unfortunate just because you cant luxuriate and bask in happiness. who says green who is luxuriating and basking in happiness doesnt have problems too? after all, we are all humans and cant run away from problems. my point is, don't assume, and i understand the pain of drifting apart from a friend. but the part about this -'But I really don't care. I already am not as fortunate as you to luxuriate and bask in happiness, which, I am aware is not easy to accomplish. I hope you won't deny me a friendship I've always treasured right from the beginning. I may not be a kickass shopping companion as much as Noi is, or someone whom you can talk to about love, drama and relationships.'. yes about this, i totally dont agree. friendship is so much meaningful than just being a kick ass shopping companion and i wouldnt trade my friendship with green for anything in the world.

that's all start.

2006-03-26T05:19:00.000-08:00

hello start. i swear my leg is aching in pain right now. i'm so not impressed by how certain things are run at the show. eerrgh. nvm. save it for next time. start, it was nice to go to his blog after a long time. although he never like update for like a few months now. i read his past entries and remembered how we used to hog on the phone till late at night everyday last time. it was nice to see my name being mentioned in his entries. i do actually miss him. but what to do... ahh forget it noi.

anyway, ok fine i shall blog about what went wrong at the show just now. the sponsors couldnt freakin make up their mind on what to put in the goodie bags lah. i swear it was around 5 times that we had to make changes. next time, me and green are so gonna wear something that is comfartable during our duties. green, cant wait for our next session of ogling at beautiful models and not to mentions hot male models. i still cant believe that geek guy can turn out to be such a hottie when he was on stage. heh. i still miss him. dont worry start, its not alfy.

2006-03-25T02:47:00.000-08:00

hello start. on weekends like this, i'll most probably be out cos like they say its saturday. but i'm glad i rotted at home today. like they say, no matter how ugly, small or hideous your house is, a home is still home. or in other words, nothing beats home. or in other words again, home sweet home. i'm probably obsessed with holding the mop now.

apm was okay considering the fact that i reached there like half an hour late. no pictures were taken. one, because the camera was dead. i had no time to buy a replacement cos i was rushing all the way home to get changed cos i had just gotten out of johor at that time. which explain why i was late. two, even if there were batteries, i wouldnt bother taking pictures lah.y? cos..let's just say i couldnt be bothered. and i've concluded, marcell and ello are way hott lahh. woot.bye.

2006-03-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

hello start. today i dressed like the most KKS ever. 'kanak kanak strawberry. and i had to bump into so many people. here, there everywhere. start, i've never wanted anything so much but please, let it come. i only have till sunday!! let it come please. i really prayed for it to come.

2006-03-22T07:37:00.000-08:00

hello start. its 20 mins to midnight. i finally decided to make myself a cup of coffeee after much considerations. its late so thought its bad to drink coffee before you sleep. start, me and green are probably the most happiest girls on earth right now. we got it we got it!! singapore fashion festival here we come.

today was an interesting day. went to geylang wit mum n her friends. i had wanted to bring a cam so much to snap some shots of the new market. there was an apek who wrapped up his foot/feet 'eerggh i dont know which one is for plural. he wrapped it with plastic bags. those white ones you always see. speaking of saving up money for rubber boots huh. we walked past this lady who was begging for money. mum gave me money to give to her but i was just so damn paisey to give it to her. why the hell was i so paisey for?!!!!!!

if you had seen my previous post, all the writtings about being stress, its still there. some of it. i've always hated reading post on other blogs that were just too long but i have a feeling this one is gonna be long. start, have you been doing something to this blog? green complain that she cant view it. i have that problem too.bye.

ps: finally the cold war is starting to simmer down and i got hold of the pic at MOS already!! yey!!

2006-03-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

hello start. i'm fucking stress without even realising it.

/edited

hello start. at this point of time i really feel like my world is becoming darker and darker. to be understanding is a difficult thing to do. if people cant understand you is a worse feeling. i'm trying to deal with tremendous pressure from work and home. please dont add more. bye.

2006-03-18T16:54:00.000-08:00

morning start. its 8 minutes to 9 in the morning now. i'm so pissed. i'm so pissed cos dad had to make so much noise complaining that there is no gas left at home. there is lah!! wat the. my jogging plans are affected, i have not bath yet, my brother had to lock his room and i cant get in to the bathroom. the phones, they keep ringing non stop. and there's ants everywhere in my room. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. where the hell did the ants come from?!!!! they keep running on me while i was sleeping. do you know how irritating is that?!!! hah?! hah?! hah?!! i hate to say this but cccccheeeeeeebyyyeeeeeeee. eerrgh.

2006-03-17T21:56:00.000-08:00

hello start. and so yauni's suprise bday was a success yesterday. cos hse was really suprised. heee. pics up next.

start, i'm gonna miss them so much lah. and also nad and faith. pics from our offically last day of school.

as we go on..we remember..all the times we had together..and as our lives change..something something..we will still be friends forever... graduation song lah start, the one sang by vitamin c. no no not that vitamin c pills lah start. bye.

2006-03-16T16:24:00.000-08:00

hello start. for a start, never look at the dates and time that my entries are made. like i've said before, its going bonkers and i dont even have that thing where u can set the day and time in blogger.

anyways, i'm up early today and i decided to hang the laundry. it was all good, the sunrise, the fresh morning air and the laundry smell nice until i got bugged by a bee or was it a... ah nvm it looked like a mini bee. you guys probably know how they like to infest the ends of the bamboo stick and maybe this mini bee had thought that i was destroying its home so it keep chasing me over and over again. get the picture? dont get, see this. this is where i already saw the bee.

ok maybe my comic strip skills are not that good. 'dont laugh at me start. but you get the whole idea. it went on and on, in and out of the house. the bee always hide itself and manage to appear out of nowhere lah. ok make it sound like some hide and seek game. the neighbours must have seen it. worse, the people from the next block. ok fine. yuani's suprise b'day today. hmmm, i smell the air of sabo-ness... *evil laugh*. but first, meeting with GSS. bye.

2006-03-15T23:43:00.000-08:00

hello start. ok its on the way. i'm still in the midst of revamping the blog. start, this one is for you. the new blog. ok i'm feeling lazy, i shall stop now. time for coffee and tv and maybe some kaypoh kaypoh nak dengar outside at the living room with my mum and her friends. bye.

2006-03-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

hello start.

i'm still feeling very sore about the interview today. i should not let it dampen my mood for tomorrow's. the last thing i need right now is for people to nag at me. mum ask me why i didnt go down to help her. she thought that they had asked me to atart work immediately or somethin. of course not lah. i fall asleep on the couch after eating, when i woke up the TV had been switched off and my hands were dry from all the kicap. yes i fall asleep right after eating and i didnt wash my hands.haha. ok lah entry is going nowhere. bye.

//edited

ok the stomach is really getting to me. looks like cockle kway teow, rice with fishball n oranges doesnt go together. errggh. i cant freakin get to sleep. start, another video for you to watch. you wanna know why i like this one very much start?

well apart from the song is really nice, i like the whole set of the video. its different. for once, they dont have to shoot a black man's (no offence) song in a club, no bling bling, no pompan2 half naked dancing around. well this one is shot in the mountain area, only one girl and erm... ok lah let's just say its nice. shuts, i cant view the full size MOS picture taken by mumtazz.com. eerrgh, really have no idea what i was doin in that pic. haha.ok bye start.

2006-03-13T03:02:00.000-08:00

hello start. i know its an old video but start, maybe i should intro u to beyonce. so do your thing girl'. heh ok i was bored so i decided to watch her video.

2006-03-12T08:41:00.000-08:00

hello start. shit i'm still feelin' damn guilty about not letting bob send me home. hafis has alreadyy slept. and i'm on the phone with green.

2006-03-11T04:51:00.000-08:00

hello start. before i get hype up and all, i came across this on the net. it was a testi for a friend from a friend. i thought it was meaningful and i wanna share it. so here it goes.

'hello dear girl. you have MIA-ed for the whole of today, after your emotional outburst last night, and we're all quite worried about you. pleasepleaseplease do not do anything silly ok. maybe you just need some time alone, but just rmb we're all always here for you yea. i'm sorry if my reply to you was harsh, or hurtful. i just want you to move on and have a new and happy life.you do not have to forget entirely, memories are for us to keep. just like mine. i've kept mine for four bloody long years. in the beginning, i was like you. i tried desperately to forget, but i couldn't. because he was just too important and special a person to me for me to do so. and you must know too that some memories are only shared between two, so it'll always be special, cause nobody can ever come between it or even stain it. hence, i hope you'll converge all your pain to just merely memories and keep them in your heart and let them remain beautiful as they are. do not try anything more, my dear.'

that's all. the mood to blog has suddenly vanish. sorry start. bye.

2006-03-09T22:23:00.001-08:00

hello start. i was in the midst of vacuuming the floor when i decided to blog. the vacuum is right beside me now. it look so peaceful. someone, someone must have vacuum the ikan bilis lah!! that someone just had to vacuum it just because the vacuum can suck anything in!! and now it smells blardy rotten lah!

ok maintain maintain. its just ikan bilis. glamour mesti maintain ok.' watever lah noi. anyways, the birthday was yesterday. this year's celebration is not that great. cos my sis-in-law was admitted and we really thought she would be giving birth yesterday. i'm like half happy and half sad. yesterday was my mum's birthday, my nephew's birthday and my bro's wedding anniversary. yeah i know i know, if she really had given birth yesterday, that would mean an additional birthday on 9 of march. heeee, i'm gonna get another nephew!!! phew phew phew phew!! anyways, happy birthday mak!! and also my naughthy cum degil nak mampos-always-get-away-with-anything-adorable-but-now-his-haircut-make-him-look-like-orang-iban-cute-little-nephew. love both of you lots. bye start.

ladies and gentlemen, bloksepot is under construction. please refrain from tagging as the tagboard is not there. the managment is looking into reconstructing it to make reading more enjoyable and also because noi is a freebird now with bergazillion of time in or on her hands. post will still be posted.your cooperation is fully appreciated. Thank You.

2006-03-08T08:01:00.000-08:00

i stayed at home the whole day today. eh i forgot to say, hello start. did lots of cleaning up and tarts too. dad appeared on tv today, haha he looked different and my mum wasnt in it! maybe cos she's the only one that didnt praise the new geylang market.

i'm going to the clinic tomorrow. my eye is getting to me. hopefully its nothing serious. the heat is also getting to me.'start: how not to get to you, you're always in long sleeve!. true start, but i cant help it. with all the extra pounds that i've gained, it doesnt help wearing short sleeve shirts. anyways, i feel secure in long sleeves.

start, i hate it when i cant get to sleep at night. like now, i'll end up being damn bored with nothing to do. and that's when my thoughts will start to ponder. i'll start to ponder. to things i shouldnt be thinking about, the past. eerrghh i hate it. i hate it. i just need somthing. something new, something to keep me busy. start, get it? bye.

2006-03-07T08:38:00.000-08:00

sawadikapp start. nope i didnt just return from thailand. for fun only lah start. start, i should tell you this. my tv remote controller almost flung out of the window. but. but i managed to save it. only the battery cover got thrown off. shit. my dad still haven find out. i bet he's gonna make noise like how he did over '4 for $10' mangoes that my mum bought. for god sake, its just 10 bucks and if you have money why not right? i wonder where the cover had landed. i think i'll look for it tomorrow. but someone jumped down and landed there before. ok on a second thought, maybe no. HELL NO lah.

anyways, as usual today green and i had a ball of a time.

like green says, 'we are certified pigs'. haha. start, my right eye is in great pain. could it be...? eerrggghhh. you know start, sometimes i'm tired of being those panicky type but on the other hand its for my own good right? ok lah start, i'm turning in. start, thanks for being my blog. hee. bye.

2006-03-04T20:00:00.000-08:00

hello start. didnt i say it was time to hooray hooray. so i figured MOS wasnt enough. thanks is & runni for bringing me to the show!! start, while the guys were busy making noises at pretty women (haha), I had my share too ok. dont believe? look at these.

haha. the hot guys i spotted. all the guys must have had a good time ogling at all the hot, sexy models lah. but i admit, they ARE hot. aduh panas si start.

double chin.*start shaking head*. i know i know, must start excercise already. anyways, its a no wonder they call zouk the best club in town. cos the music was fantastic. for the first time ever start, i enjoyed trance music they were playing. i cant believe i dance to trance lah. i dont see much difference at the place, after they say they renovated it. it looks pretty much the same to me. but it was all good. bye.

eeeyoooo

2006-03-03T09:16:00.000-08:00

hello start. my legs are in paaiin. could i be having bone cancer? touchwood. ya allah jauhkan lah. i was reading my previous entry and i realized that i made a typo error. '...and i did not freakin lose my earrings that miss green bought for me all the way from L.A. spot the mistake? haha. the words 'did not' was not suppose to be there lah. cos i did lose my earrings. lol.

'the results

start, at this point of time, life is going on smoothly. results are coming out next week. i am feeling nervous shit. today marks officially the last day of school and i admit, i cried when ms yvonne cried. and the performances were just.. how shall i describe it, heart touching. in the mean time, its time to enjoy, sit back, relax, some movie marathon, potato couching, party party party before the results are out. eh? but i still have some project left to do huh. 'start: its okay to squeeze in some fun noi *evil laugh*. ahhhh thanks man start for saying that.bye.

2006-03-02T07:47:00.000-08:00

hello start.

and so i did managed to vanish my sorrows away. huh. MOS was power, although i wish there were fewer people and i did not freakin lose my earrings that miss green bought for me all the way from L.A. let the picture do the talking. 'phew i'm so glad i did not go ms.

'at MOS, smoove room.see the earrings were still there.

'hah, as usual we were camwhoring

'ok fine i know its hideous.

'this one is so damn cute lah. dj tang.

then it was back to this.

bye start. wish me luck for tomorrow's exibition.

2006-02-28T08:57:00.000-08:00

'my naugthy boy earlier on. he had powder all over his face. its cool in the babies world.

'my naughty boy now. he was just being mentel.

'i like his latest haircut so so much. make him look more degil (naughty)

'another shot. he did it on purpose. mentel you.haha

start, at times when i feel so damn low, its these pictures that i look at to calm down. it work for me, i dont know about the others. miss green (izzah) & me did not get the bridal job thing. hope thursday one turns out good. miss green, msg me when you get your results. i know you can do it, i have faith in you lah!!!

anyways, i'm gonna club my sorrows off tomorrow. bye.

hah

2006-02-26T07:15:00.000-08:00

hello start. for a start i have something to say. mira i want the pics pics pics!!! ok. i'm so full right now and my stomach feel sooo hot. i think its burning inside. start, i had a good week. it was filled with friends friends friends. i love them start. hope next week is gonna be fine too. anyways, i'm on a hunt for my keje main main already. something that is not long term. that's why it is called keje main main 'play play job. something that will actually make my resume look good lah.

'the one that fun was in the toilet.

'the one where the lights were just great.

'the one that dont need to describe. the picture tells all.

'the one at jb part 2.

'the one who wants to sell but damn malu.

'the one that couldnt help but to sell ikan bilis.

the surname.

2006-02-24T23:18:00.000-08:00

its saturday start. time to hooray hooray. i wanna club!!!!! aaaaahhhhh. meeting mira later for the hooray hooray, cant wait!! before i forget, some overdue pics. it was fun fun fun start.

toilet.

2006-02-24T08:58:00.000-08:00

start!! the first thing that i did when i came home just now was to take a bath. but i ended up scrubing the toilet. and it felt good to scrub something. anyways, i did it already start. i dyed my hair n this is how it looked like.

ok just dont look at my face. i think i look gayish in there. but it looks red here. its suppose to be more purplish lah. like you know those grape colour. ok whatever. enough of me. hey i've been getting some tags about you start!! mus ask how old are you. well, start is only a few days old but old enough to handle all my rantings. but i still dont know whether start should be a boy or a girl. i think i'll let it be both. can right start? hehehe. i think i'll let you have a surname. suggestions anyone?

hello start.

2006-02-23T09:25:00.000-08:00

hello start. its times like these that i find it hard to sleep. again. its about 1.24am in the morning now. i have music plugged into my ears and i just scrubbed my feet with that thing that i bought just now. it felt good scrub. i mean start. it felt good start. dont know lah start, dont know since when i've become so particular about taking care of my feet. start, as of tommorow i'll have purple hair. no start, not that really purple like bright purple. its just gonna be slight purplish. that is of the dye turns out good.

start have you ever like feel really really lazy? i'm going through that phase now. i'm too lazy to even take the controller that has fallen off my bed. for god sake lah noi, it just fell. go pick it up lah. this is when the lazy noi has come out for action. altho there's like no actions cos like all you need to do is to be lazy=not to do just about anything. start, i have so many things that i wanna get but sooo little money. i need some kerje main main lah start, or in english, part time work. aight start, i think i'll force myself to sleep. i wanna go run tomorrow. bye.

pms-sy

2006-02-20T20:22:00.000-08:00

my blog is gonna be named start. yes 'start'.

dear start,

i haven gone much into studying. y? i dont know start, maybe i just dont have the mood to. i know i'm gonna regret it. i'm in deep shit right start? hey start, u wanna know why ur name is start? cos i was thinking of a name to name you n i saw this 'start' button on the computer screen.'i think u guys know which button it is. so yeah, i thought it was catchy n cool. so there u go, that's how your name come about. start, tomorrow's the last paper. i have to study lah start. god, this entry is gertting nowhere. bye start. i'll see you tomorrow.

2 hrs later.

start, it felt so good to sleep. no, i was not trying to curi tulang from studying. pms lah start. feel better though. hope it stays this way cos i need to study. ok i'm back to mugging. wish me all the best. hey start, i'm starting to like your name. heee.

hours later

oh god start, i tried attempting the past years papers and they were so damn hard. you know what is more sucky? its like you cant like really get the answers from the text books. and the textbook, dont get me started on that. its in english but its damn confusing lah!! how start? see ya'all in 4.1. bye. i'm depressed.

random

2006-02-13T07:56:00.000-08:00

video uploaded!tomorrow's gonna be the presentation for the company. which i decided not to prepare for. i'll just speak what comes to mind. i wanna talk about good things. sometimes its better not to think about things which you know you'll worry about, so I think i'm not gonna think too much about tomorrow. 'sometimes only lah.

i'm suppose to be studying for only one paper. now i have to study for a re test. BIT-ians, please dont kecoh kecoh in the forum please. it is NOT fair lah to those who had to do it on paper. 'i got to do my test online.hee

okay for those who dont understand, doing it online means you can check whether u got the question right which means you will get your marks after you've done the whole test. so yeah n the story goes on, you'll know why we're having a re-test.

Before I forget, Happy Valentine's Day ppl. And Bob, thanks for the dinner. I guess I'm gonna hang out more at brewerkz now. haha. I enjoyed myself kayy. Off to dreamland now.

why

2006-02-11T09:38:00.000-08:00

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why must i see them on the streets? i was having such a good day, i had so much fun. i was laughing my ass off during the day, joke and fooled around with my friends and it all had to go down just because for the first time I saw them. why must i feel so sad? it didnt mean anything till when i sat down and is was telling me she met him. and at that moment, i felt like my heart was crushed so badly. i actually felt like my heart was being sucked in and i could feel the pulling effect. no i dont long for him or anything, but i'm still so fucking sad that i had to be left that way. please, if i cant talk to FATE, please understand what it feels like to be in my shoes. you wont know it until it happens to you. fuck today. you have no idea what damage you have done to my fucking life.

2006-02-09T02:45:00.000-08:00

something i came across while surfing the net. I like the parts when the guys get to dance with the girls. enjoy!!

BI

2006-02-08T00:13:00.000-08:00

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i'm in lab now. exactly 46 minutes before my test. god. whoever came up with this stupid hard irritating god-knows-how-irrelevent it is in business world subject, Business Intelligence. or what we call it BI. for my fellow BIT juniors, I've done you guys a big favour by doing the subject survey saying-"BI SHOULD never be an online subject". Karma is definitely getting me on this.

tanning

2006-02-07T01:42:00.000-08:00

i'm gonna blog in malay today. kenape lah dgn hari ini. seriously, aku ingat kan hari ni aku boleh releks2, dudok rumah tengok tv, tapi otak ini mcm nak meletop fikirkan benda2 yang tak sepatotnye difikirkan. haiz takpelah, biar apapun yang terjadi..i'll take a day at a time. 'gee i'm speaking malay english now

menyesal aku pergi tanning kat sentosa. sekarang muka aku tak lari macam orang minyak. that's it lah noi, ini kali terakhir aku akan pergi tanning. lain kali kalau gi sentosa, aku akan tepekkan sun block cream kat badan aku banyak2. tapi a little sun wont kill lah.

aku tgh fikir ni, sekarang pon aku dah boleh cari kerje. i mean exams is in less than 3 weeks?!! aku cume ade satu paper ajer. harap harap aku boleh pass ah. doa doa kan lah aku eh? ok lah, aku nak gi belajar untok BI ni. 'so how's my malay. minahish or not?

2006-02-05T20:36:00.000-08:00

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my week wa practically filled up. let the pictures tell the story huh.

'Girlfriend theraphy with Izz.

'Picnic with THE poly mates

'Third Bro's Wedding. Kecoh!

'The Ishaks

'That's all folks!!

the injured foot

2006-01-29T21:02:00.000-08:00

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'my, that's one big bandage for the cut

new video uploaded!!my cousin who's five years old got a little black eye cos somehow from his very detailed explaination he got into a fight where he kena box and he hit the gate. that's how he got the black eye. now i got a not so deep cut on my right feet cos he left the scotchtape thing on the floor and I step on it. but i still love my holidays though. hee. how i wish i can join mira to MOS today. sorry girl, takde sen ah. biler mau jumpe babe?!! oh gosh, i just sounded like a certified minah.

random

2006-01-28T21:43:00.000-08:00

when noi is really angry and in the cari pasal mood. cheebye. i hate seeing their faces now. such an eyesore.

parfum.perfume.

2006-01-27T07:50:00.000-08:00

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'perfume tells what kind of person you are. it also can hold a whole lot of memories.

parfume.perfume. i'm on a hunt for a new fragrance. been using kenzo for the longest time and yeah i'm moving on to a new one. like finally. any recommendations? kenzo perfume was something that i fell in love with at the first smell. tak percaye blh ask izzah okay. hehe cos i was with her back then when i was buying the perfume for my mum. remember iz? yeah i was the one who got hooked onto it at last. and yeah that perfume also bring along lots of memories. so its new frangrance, new year 'a bit too late to say that right? and most importantly new life. my biggest wish right now is to pass and get a diploma.

mpfyp

2006-01-25T08:34:00.000-08:00

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somehow i got a gut feeling like i'm gonna repeat my year. its not that i didnt try hard. i did.'be optimistic noi be optimistic. no captions for photos this time round. too many pics. bear with it aight. Final Year Project Presentation

-the end-

sleepeover

2006-01-23T05:50:00.000-08:00

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'who lives in a pineapple under the sea?

'spongebob squarepants!! altho i like squidward*makes squidward's voice*

'thanks to the hp camera for catching the makcik kaypo in action

the project has finally been submitted. everybody has been wearing a smile today. she misses her mum n her dad. the fact that she haven't been spending time with them, bothers her a lot. she was brought up in a great family n over the years, she's grown up to be a family oriented person. family was on top of her priority list. the one above all. she cant be away too long from her parents, especially her mum. the last time she went KL with her friends, she was missing her mum n dad like crazy. her brother once said this-"seorang ibu boleh jaga sepuluh anak, tapi tak tahu kalau sepuluh anak ni boleh jaga satu ibu".

2006-01-22T01:22:00.000-08:00

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'the grafitti made at design sch during the open house. I loike.

'i needed a break in lab

'i haven seen you like in months lahh!! miss ya hommie.

'another one of my hommie. you have to get well okkaay!! Then we can go to the beach.

A month ago, her second brother had gotten engaged. A few weeks back her nephew had gotten his very first aqiqah. In two weeks time, her third brother will be getting married. All the women n girls in the family had gotten their outfit tailored. During the first brother's wedding, all the ladies had worn blue sari material. This time round, we will be wearing cream colour. Fun fun fun. Like yasmeen had said,"wah, your family very busy huh. so many upcoming events". The truth is, I like. and I'm treasuring it very much.

pads

2006-01-20T08:21:00.000-08:00

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//still writing in the third eye view's ode.

she couldnt wait till the end of the week to post the new video. its an old song but she love it so much that she had to post today. open house at sch wasnt as exciting as last year. maybe because she was cooped up in the lab practically the whole day. she missed all the hoo haa of open house. its alright. but what's not alright was when she saw the new courses offered by business sch. damn. she thought it was an eyesore. so she walked with one eye open so that she could avoid see those banners saying,"DIPLOMA IN CATERING AND CULINARY MGMT, DIPLOMA IN RESORT AND LEISURE MGMT". heartache.

In the midst of walking with one eye open, she saw someone giving away freebies. her friends were getting the freebies. she wanted one too. so without any hesistation, she walk towards it."what might it be? is it free make up that they were talking about?!!". she stopped, smiled and held out her hand. it was a free sanitary pad. god damn it. she was feeling damn grateful she had her bag with her. at this point of time, having a bag was useful compared to times when she tried to bring less things as possible so that she will not have to bring a bag.

the day was spent at fyp. picture taking tommorow. hope i can get some good ones. back to the fyp mode now. tada.

scary

2006-01-17T09:09:00.000-08:00

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i'll be writting this entry from a third eye view. heee, remember bob? u asked whether i've ever tried writting this way. here it is, i'm trying my hands on this.

the day had been fine. it was busy but she somehow got into the mode of it. afterall, she was treasuring da last few chapters in school. the day began by designing for her fyp. after which she slept for only a few hours and headed down to the place. Wearing a skirt was a total mistake. she couldn't bend down as easily with pants to take pictures. what's worse,the weather was humid and having people staring doesnt help. What could be so curious-ing('if there's such a word) about a girl taking photos in the middle of the streets? She was having sweat trickling down almost the whole body and in her mind the question linger.."shit, will i get dark, will i get dark??". she was, in the hot scorching sun for one n a half hour.

how? ok or not? blh jadi writer tak? hahahha. not my forte.

eahfhaskhfkj

2006-01-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

ebytes fusion is getting tired. the whole cohort is. i can easily dozz off in lectures when i'm sitting like in the first few rows. but next week is the last week of fyp. sad, we wont be kecoh-ing in labs anymore. No more playing with the office chairs and no more talking at the top of your voice in project rooms. no more rushing to sch in the wee hours of the morning to get the best rooms 'okay this part goes to faith n yasmeen. overdue pics from napha test. courtesy of nad bob. like we always say...Terima Kasih Awak!!!hahaha

the malay girls excluding me, faith n nad. where da hell were we?

after our turns at the shuttle run station

prata time!on our way to the eating place

at the place

fooling arnd with nad bob

makan time!!

say hello to the other nad!

read this

2006-01-11T08:37:00.000-08:00

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today's entry shall gonna be somethin more meaningful(i hope so). ppl please make an effort to read.'no i'm not askin for sympathy cos i know how pathethic this blog is. anyways, let's get down to the story.

in life, some people tend to do well, but some dont. i just viewed by 3 yrs academic results=no good. i sat down wondering. what if i had put in a little effort into my studies? there are many type of people that i've noticed in school.

the everything must get A
if i had strived hard for everything, i woould maybe emerged as a top student. someone said to me,' those who want to get an A in everything, will end up the most hurt'. there's a point. you cant be perfect all the time. you will fall at times. and when that happens, boy it hurts a lot. but what if you dont fall? then i guess ur lucky.

the slacker who repent at the very last min
if i had worked hard for this very last sem, maybe i'll be satisfied. altho it may not have done good (to get me to U), but at least i've tried. i'll be contented.

the true blue born slacker
i cant be like this. i panic alot.

the consistent, not.
this is me. the only time i remember working hard at getting good grades was when i had to retake my business accoutings and some other subjects. that was a turning point for me. but...a turning point that turned really fast. i went back to slackin and then being hardworking and the cyle goes on. what do you call that?inconsistency. that's what i am.

so i figure out that if dont get to the U, i shall work. i'll be happy enough if i pass poly. anyways, poly had made me try my hands on things that i've liked since i dont-know-when. like the colour&compo, freehanddrawing and if anybody ever ask me whether i regretted not studying hard, myanswer-no. cos how contented can an inconsistent person be? i am inconsistent. but for this last sem, i'm gonna give it all out baby. yes. i'm gonna put to use everything that i've learn from the past three years. together with them-

and them, my fyp group.

2006-01-09T09:16:00.000-08:00

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i had a fun week at sch last week. despite da project season, we managed to squeeze in some fun. got too many pics to upload but i'm damn lazy lah. so here it goes...

the 24 hour marathon thing. we ran ok. got a video of us running but too lazy to upload it. we had tons of fun that day!! ps:i miss cheering.

artika's bday!!

its my life

2006-01-07T11:23:00.001-08:00

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its 3:24am right now. jus finish doing da tarts. phew what a day. next week is gonna be hectic. its gonna be filled with projects, interviews, talks and da list goes on. goin to sentosa later. i think i'll probably gonna doze off later at sentosa because i'm feeling don-want-to-sleep-cos-later-cannot-wake-up-on-time. Anyways, check this out:

This was one of da 'hantaran' items(gift exchange) that was for my bro's engagement. hmmmm, poppycock? we place it at da bottom covered by da rest of the stuff. it was well hidden. boy what a name.*winkz*

life's a beach

2006-01-04T08:33:00.000-08:00

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life's a bitch everyone. at times. 3 more weeks and major project will be over. as much as i complain about being stress up with sch, i'm gonna miss it one day.

i think my blog's pic is a bit too obit lah. i'll change it soon, when i get da chance to lay my hands on da camera. now got no time. i keep thinking abt that guy at da club on new yr's eve. he somehow reminded me of someone. mira, it was really fun clubbing with u that night!! da getting away from you know who, da choli dropping, da girls who wanted to start da dance but goes all da way back. haha. i really enjoyed it.:) n i'm so glad that african guy didnt turn out to be a bangla!! hahahaha. it was all fun.

my sister

2006-01-02T14:59:00.000-08:00

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ppl always come to me and say, 'wah u look like your sister'. helllo, then what da hell are sisters supposed to look like and correction pls, my sister look like me cos i was born first. not I look like her. nevertheless, i love my sister.

'here she is, all big and getting ready to start sch today.

ever since u came into this world, circumstances took its place. my biggest wish is for us to live together. for once, i wanna feel like a sister.

new yr eve

2006-01-01T06:53:00.000-08:00

sorry for the sparse update. been busy lately. everything's fine. new yr eve was fun. i enjoyed it. but i forgot to bring my cam. of all things.

frust

2005-12-22T08:47:00.000-08:00

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i'm damn pissed with myself. i missed my BI quiz. enough said. i feel so not motivated to do anything. i've been slackin' like nobody's business this sem. eerrggh. 'cannot noi, must be hardworkin

somebody told me that i've been rather quiet these months. not m-i-a quiet but quiet... ah u get what i mean. have i? maybe.

happy.i wish there will be a day when i'll get to say, "i'm happy". do u know that to be happy is such a hard thing to accomplish?"i'm happy" is a short phrase, just a sentence that consist of two words but to get it, is such a hard thing to do. its short and simple, but it tells a thousand tales.

music. music is the best companion one can have.'adapted from is. its there when u need it. it comes in different melodies and tunes, fit to your emotions.

food. live to eat?eat to live? food is an adventure.

comfort. comfort can be use in lots of terms. comfort in clothes. comfort in friendship. comfort that you get from hugs. and comfort, taxi comfort. glamour isnt neccessary, but comfort is.

dance. dance. dance. i believe how a person dance can tell me a thing or two about the person. dancing is great. a way to let down your hair after a hard day at work. i cant resist singing and dancing at da same time. i mean, everytime i dance, i will tend to sing too. i just cant resist it. but i'm trying to.

karma. i believe in karma. i believe for every good thing, a bad thing will happen too. vice versa. i belive in luck. it can do miracles. all these can happen but we do not know when and where.

stand. i have my stands. i respect ppl with good stands. of course these stands do not come easily like that but it was exprienced first hand by me. its adding on belive me.

faggy

2005-12-21T05:04:00.000-08:00

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currently munching on sausages or what my mum prefer to call them, konek anjing. yess. what a way to describe it mum.anyways, i'm back from hunting high and low for the engagement stuff. do u know that they don't sell skittles in those fun pack styles? yah da ones that comes in super mini packet sizes. i had a hard time finding it and which i gave up at last.

drop down my working place to look for some books. no comments, i just miss working there and da ppl too. and so after 3 hours of walking, i finally reached home. had to wait for the movers to move da stuff before i got into da lift. and guess what? when i reached my floor, i turned and suddenly a group of ppl came shouting at me"MErry christmas merry christmas!!". god. they were practically occupying the corridor space. i really had no space to walk. apparently they are u know those ppl who go house to house to sing christmas songs. but hey they did sound good. i wanted to reach home so badly so i resorted to pushing my way through with my shopping bags and plastics. make me look like those nyonyas. ya tats all. this is such a redundant entry, totally.

bacckkkk

2005-12-19T19:30:00.000-08:00

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hello ppl. wow its been 9 days since i blogged. now i'm back. i'm still da same old me. except i'm feeling like some kind of retard right now cos i'm having difficulties getting up from da bed. all thanks to nafa test. now when i laugh, its with lots of pain. when i cough, its with lots of pain. when i sneeze, god its painful too. the stomach muscle is being overstretch lah.and so da christmas gathering is off. haiz. faith and nad, all our preparation is for nothing.

ok this was taken from faith's blog. apparently, she wrote this herself.

Jingle bells batman smells,

nadia lay an egg,

its time for school,

she's late again,

when noi falls the bed HEY!

Jingle bells batman smell

it's timeee for e-lab lesson...

if brandon fails his BI proj,

then all of the BIT is doom.

Dashing thru the BI,

it sucks so bad it sucks,

ppl all want to die,

da jie she wan to cry

but i finish already,

still theres other thing to do,

but i just want to give up now,

then to go and hear ms chong's sweet voice.

HEY!

Jingle bat badman smells,

i want to end school now

but then i know if it really ends

i am going to cry like siao

HEY

jingle bells batman smells

maybe i will think it thru,

i will love all my frenz at sch

and hope they will love me too!

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can u believe it.ahahahha. love ya faith!!

this week

2005-12-11T00:29:00.000-08:00

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This week was pretty much a mundane week. its basically waking up, go to sch and coming back from sch. its dad's birthday tommorow. happy birthday daddy. love ya very much. 2nd bro is getting all the jitters about getting engaged. he and dad put me in charge of decorating the baskets. 3rd bro is nowhere to be seen. he's probably enjoying himself in KL. enjoy enjoy jgn tak enjoy. my first bro is excited about the arival of the new addition to the family. i feel happy for him. mum is fine too. me? i'm pretty much in the low spirits these days. i think the emotional wreck thing is getting back to me. oh god noi. talk about something new please. i need the beach. its a good thing for me now.

lets get it started

2005-12-08T08:26:00.000-08:00

Friday, 09 December 2005, room

be prepared for a freaking long entry cos i'm in the blogging mode today.

i'm so gonna miss sch. i think tp has the best location among all polys. it has all the best makan places that u want right in front of it. a reservoir that became our smoking pit, a place where we girls jog and jus chill and unwind. on top that, its near to east coast. like faith say, if i could, i would give the sch a big big hug.

lets talk about something meaningful shall we. you see i like hearing people's view, i like to stimulate ppl's thinking. wat does dating mean to you? well here's what dating means in my dictionary.

dating in noi's dictionary- for me, dating is the time when you get to know more about the person. i dont see any wrong when someone dates a few ppl at one time. totally no wrong cos you're getting to know more about the person. so dont come to me saying "what?! you've been talking and going out with other guys?!" hello pak cik, get it? its always better to have choices. besides, we're only dating. no feelings involve ok. so what's your say?

unneeded

2005-12-06T20:22:00.000-08:00

07 December'05 12:32pm, sch lab

i feel so uneeded.

da pictures

2005-12-05T07:10:00.000-08:00

05 December'05, Monday

on the way to desaru, fellow buses in front.

my room

my room part 2

1st pic-da children who perform for us malay dance. they were good! 2nd pic- me in my kebaya. the theme was "malam tradisional". i decided to snap a pic of myself while waiting for the manager.

came back with this. all of us were high on henna!

that's all guys. cant post all the pics. anyways, i enjoyed myself during the trip. although it was last min(i got to know only 3 days before the trip!!), i made sure i did not leave any passenger like da last one. all in all, it was good. now should i go for da next trip to KL?

ps: i've changed da picture on da left from the picture of my bedsheet to popiah.:)

back

2005-12-04T19:24:00.000-08:00

the trip was jus great. pics will be uploaded soon. tonight. as soon as i get away from school. in class now, having POT lessons. i have no idea where elton has gone too. i'm thinking..thinking.. where to go for lunch later...

yeahahahahhe

2005-12-02T09:49:00.000-08:00

i dont feel like going. i dont think i'm up to it. i'll miss mum. *long face* i already did.

ps: blogger's date publishing section is gone. now all my post is on da same date. how great is that.

i believe i can fly

2005-12-01T09:05:00.000-08:00

i dont know if i can do it this time around. GBR here i come.'i can do it i can do it i must do it i will take lots of pics. wats new. in da mean time, lets sing to this. for those who know. hey who says old songs arent great to hear?

Hari Ini Dan Semalam by J.Mizan

Hari ini kau datang riang
Tersenyum buatku senang
Kau hias dirimu
Membuat hati bertambah sayang

Tapi wajahmu semalam muram
Mengapa dewi mengapa
Mungkinkah aku bersalah
Cubalah dewi katakan

( korus )
Jangan dewi jangan begitu
Senyum-senyumlah selalu
Manis riang
Wajah bertambah jelita

da thing tha kill

2005-12-01T01:54:00.000-08:00

'i know if i open my mouth, i swear i could scold up and down. so silence is da best thing. i should have known this thing is a bad thing for friends.

Noi

weight issue

2005-11-27T14:57:00.000-08:00

i really need to do something about my sleeping habits. its bad. i wont wake up even if there's a bomb that drop beside me. anyways, da week had been hectic. meetings, projects, datelines, meeting turned into frisbee and tug of war session. makan, wade session, more cigs and coffee. and yeah my days are pretty much filled with staring at da computer screen for more than 12 hrs. but its still managable tho. at least it makes me feel like i'm working hard for good grades. there's so much that i feel but so little to write. let da pictures tell how my week had been.

being punished by the teach

da first pic is a gambar perasaan. sec pic, watching others play

the frisbee team

tug-of-war mesti ade strategy beb

us in action.hahahahha

later at night...

went down to one. it was pretty mendak but i decided to make da best out of it. needed to unwind from all da stress lah.

me with da birthday ppl.

its been a long time since i met them

thats's all folks!

not mention

2005-11-22T11:15:00.000-08:00

iz u better not mention who won da project runway. hee.

lets summarise 2005 shall we since we are nearing countdown. i know its earrly but who cares.

2005- was a learning and fruitful year for me. started the year with him, altho he made me cry during countdown. after da break up, i became one hot tempered girl who snap at anyone who pissed her off. it was hard, but i knew i had to get over it. i just had to. i refuse to become or to be sad. but those few months, i spent da nights crying to sleep. i was lucky, god gave me something to be busy with and that was my attachment company. it was crazy. i learnt so much from that comp, and for da first time ever i became a tour leader. yes, noi jadi tour leader. kekek. it was tough at times, work pressure and colleagues pressure. but i'm glad i had something to keep my mind off da breakup. i was smoking like nobody's business. hoping that cigarrettes would cure my pain. but it didnt. then fasting month came, i worked at bugis for da time being with nad. there, i met da craziest and da wackiest bunch of people ever. it kept my mind of everything. back home, it was more crazy cos i was busy helping at da shop and also da tart business. time flew so fast during ramadhan and raye came. this yr's raye was mendak i would say. after mths of looking foward to raye, it turn out like this. i shall not look foward to it next yr cos i dont wanna jinx it.

at that point of time,my feelings for him fade away. i had no more feelings for him. but i was still very hurt by what happened. it made me close all doors to guys.even till now. and now, sch had just started. its chaotic also. meetings everyday. i drop out of floorball cos i didnt have da time, and despite all this kecoh, i'm building better ties with my baos, my groupmates. like they say, for every bad thing that happen, a good thing will happen too.

well, he's happy now.i know. caramelle, i knew you could love him better than i did. i'm happy for him. mum, thanks for all da relationship advice you gave me. i love you so much. dad, i'm sorry i lost my phone for da freaking third time. my brothers, oh my god u guys are getting married for god sake lah!!! jadi mat kahwin kahwin.hahahaha. but i'm sad that i'll be left alone at home. no more brothers to pamper me anymore.

for those who are going through hard times now, all i can say is that time will heal. somebody once told me, every person will have to go through at least one painful heartbreak, and i'm glad i just had mine. and for those who are going well and steady with their first love, lucky you! now i think i'll take back my words. i dont think that da yr had been a learning and fruitful one but it had been a learning, fruitful and emotional wreck one.

as i've promised

2005-11-20T19:01:00.000-08:00

as i've promised, da pics for da raya outing

our driver, bad.

on our way to meet da guys

me and ama in da front seats

sempat posing kat petrol station!!haha

random pics

3/4 of da BIT malay batch 03/04'

'sorry if some of da pics are blur. cos da cam was shaly when taken

anti social

2005-11-18T21:33:00.000-08:00

yesterday's jalan raya was crazy but it all turn out good. pics will be uploaded soon.

' ~~i'm always misunderstood.~~ i've always been misunderstood thats why i can be such an anti social at times. i rather keep my mouth shut than to say stupid things. believe me,i wouldnt say words that are so hurting for no reason. unless, you make me have a reason to. '

thanks you guys

2005-11-16T23:46:00.000-08:00

da pink ladies

i was really shocked when i saw my name on it!!!

i guess da expression tells all

my birthday girl.

my birthday girl opening up her present

i really like mine!! i put it on after opening it and i'm still wearing it as i'm typing this!!

Thank you once again Nad, Sharon, Artika, Yasmeen and Brendon. Words can explain how happy I am. *wide smile*

let me start da day

2005-11-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

when stress takes over. i resort to chamwhoring. i loike.

photo day

2005-11-14T08:44:00.000-08:00

i got a digicam! i got a new digicam!!! finally. after da death of my old digicam, i finally got a new one!! and so we had a photography session out. and here are da pics.

*da second pic taken by da camera. i jus love taking black and white pics*

*and then da session began. this was taken by anuar*

*anuar taking pic. expert at work*

*ok he was bombarded with a group of tourist. kak ogy says that he's like a walking information counter. and so we decided to snap this*

*see a difference? luckily kak ogy and anuar was there to supervise me on da techniques*

*my first masterpiece!! altho's its not that good. i really have to practise more!!*

hehehe.. i had a wonderful day today. kak ogy thanks for da belated birthday treat!!! and to those who wished me birthday greetings, u guys know who you are... love you guys to bits. thank you!!! and brendon if you're reading this, care to have a photo session with me? i know you are expert on this!!

hey all

2005-11-10T15:27:00.000-08:00

hey all. sorry i've been m-i-a for a while. been busy with sch. oh yeah. sch jus open. its da fourth day now and i'm already mentally exhausted. ok nad just caught me blogging. i should be doing my project now. anyways, life has been ok. something has been bugging me for a while.

i hate it when ppl play around with da word "love you". when somebody says it, you will know how much he mean it. a simple "i love you" can show you how somebody defines love. whether he or she know what is love. imagine this. you get to know a guy, n you talk on da phone for less than 4 times and each conversation barely last half an hour. dont even talk about sms. and after a few days, he msg you saying "love you". i find that crap. and when i got that msg, i feel so offended. how could somebody play around with those words. it jus simply tell me that da person doesnt know that love can be more meaningful and better that just that. let me tell you this, love has to be earned and grown. get it?

mr fit

2005-10-30T22:42:00.000-08:00

drop by little india to buy earrings. they are georgous and da rest of da accesories are way nicer than those at geylang's. work was fine.*smiling* mr fit was there. i think i'm making too much obvious hints. eerrggh. but everytime i see him, i cant heelp but smile to myself. well, i dont wanna put too much hope on that. its just a crush. well, raya's getting nearer, i remember it was around this time that i had met him. oh well, what past is past. i still do think abt him but i think da feelings are not there anymore. he will still remain special and even till the day i'm married, i'll still remember him. afterall, he was my first love. so yeah, i'll remember him cos he's my first love, no feelings involved. i thought it would takes me years to move on but then it took only 6 mths. i'm glad da phase is over. alhamdullilah.

wreck

2005-10-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

my line has been activated already. i'm still not over for da loss of da phone. i'm drained mentally and physically. i think i'm becoming workaholic(is that how u spell it?). oh never mind. i thought this month would be a shopping spree but i guess now da money will have to go to da new phone. i have to put on hold my digicam, my shopping spree and my long awaited holiday!! kanasai.

Firdaus came over to my house yesterday. oh my god, his hair change so much. it grew longer but he's still as cute as ever. afterall, i use to have a major crush on him. haha. that was like years back.

edited a few minutes later..

i'm so freakin pissed. there's just so many things to do with so little time. and and dont even let me get started on M. in da midst of feeling pissed and angry, she came out and spoke to me in some alien language which is freakin irritatin!!!!!!!! i dont understand what you're saying lah!! for god sake go and learn proper malay. business is no easy matter. i've learnt that you have to really plan it well. i wish i could make those changes to my mum's business. i've been snapping at everyone in da family. eversince da breakup, i've become so hot tempered. i dont think before getting angry. this is not da noi that i use to be. i have to get back da old noi, for my own good.

phone lost again

2005-10-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

dont bother reaching me for these past few days. i lost my phone again for da freaking third time!!!eerrgghhh!!()*)&*(&^*^&%&^%$*%&*(&*(_*(&(&^*(^&*%^^&*()+_()_*^^$%@#$#$R%^&*()_+()*%%%^^*()(*)(). i dont give a damn if its other stuff that got lost but y my phone?!! it was a present frm my daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so long my beloved phone.

kanasai

2005-10-24T16:29:00.000-07:00

i've decided to postpone buying da new digicam to christmas sale n no, no one chips in ok. its gonna be paid by my money solely. n yeah i'm gonna get another baby nephew!!! its confirm, my sis in law went for a scan today and its a boy. i guess there's gonna be more power rangers fanatics in da future. n oh ya, i've banned power rangers in da house. no more power rangers. banned from the household. da last time all da power ranger fanatics(my little cousins+my nephew), all four of them came, the tv was on da verge on exploding and da playstation got screwed. power ranger oh power ranger....u drive kids crazy huh.

ps:yey mr fit is back at work.*smiles*

kemamot

2005-10-23T00:05:00.000-07:00

is there such a word as kemamot? it somehow just pop into my mind. kemamot? anyways, today was definitely a break for me. i was jus taking charge of da second oven and the packing. i'm starting to get comfartable with M. we can even crack joke now.

my aunt and me were talking abt guys yesterday. it was da topic for da night. it was all fun. she shared stories with me, so practically we were bitching actually. what are girls if we dont bitch right? 'i forgot its ramadhan. da setan must have definitely work on this one. n yeah i came across faryn's friendster profile and i saw this-"it takes another bitch to know a bitch". true.its a pretty strong saying. ones that will put a smack right up to another girl's face if she calls ya a bitch. you go faryn!!

behave lady

2005-10-21T22:41:00.000-07:00

i shall spent my money wisely
i shall spent my money wisely
i shall spent my money wisely
i shall spent my money wisely

'quote of the month perhaps?

i'm pissing my dad off to da max. dad, rest assure u did nothing wrong. its not u. its me. its just one of my bad mood days. on these days, i can explode over da slightest, smallest thing ever. thats me i guess. jus need to let this off my chest cos i feel bad being really mean to him.'ok fine i dont feel better at all. maybe i should say sorry to him. but damn paisey lah.

i love getting to meet cute gorgeous small kids at work. i usually do straightening at da children's section. some kids are just simply friendly. they will come to me and hand me da books. while some will just leave it lying on the floor. these are those that i call those evil-ly(is there such word) cute. some are intelligent kids asking me of god-knows-who the author is. they leave me speechless. the rest are just darlings.

morning jam

2005-10-20T13:33:00.000-07:00

they totally kick ass. joe augustin is such a natural dj. he and maggie has this humour which never fails to make me laugh. i was listening to them on da hp radio one morning in my bedroom. as you guys know i have guest sleeping with me. so yeah they were pretty much asleep and i was trying very hard to control and tahan my laughter. i didnt wanna wake them up and they might be pretty suprise to see me laughing by myself early in da morning. if they had woken up. which they didnt. lucky me. cant wait for da next morning jam!!

back off

2005-10-19T09:05:00.000-07:00

she's overworking herself again. at these times, i'm glad i have my brothers. to my brothers, all da three of you-i know that it hurts you guys to see mum overworking herself. it hurts me just as much. let's work towards our goal aight? we will make mum proud.

bald

2005-10-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

i read an article about a lady who shaved her head bald for charity. her pictures still look beautiful. maybe because she had the sharp looks. would i shave bald for charity? i dont know. hair is the everyday fashion accessory that you wear and it tells so much about yourself. i'm still considering about signing up for elle club membership. the benefits are great!! invites to parties and freebies freebies freebies!! but hey, what's in for them? i just wanna know whether there's monthly subcription fees.

anyone up for hair dying? my fingers are itching to dye hair and its all cos of my collegue who brought up the subject of "dying hair". cutting hair is a no no for me. da last time i cut black's hair, the V shape became U shape. he had wanted a V shape at the back but somehow it became U. haha. take that for being such a real bastard.

i dont know there's club med in bintan!! aight gonna check out da rates now. tataz!!

jujur padaku

2005-10-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

in love with this song.

Jujur - Radja

duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
dapatkah kau memberiku satu arti
sedikit rasa yang bisa ku mengerti
bukan sumpah atau janji

* buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta
setulus hatimu bisa menerima
sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
bukan sekedar bersama

reff: jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia
tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku

jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia
tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku selamanya

he's attached

2005-10-16T01:43:00.000-07:00

jus came back from meeting is. hey dude, today was meaningful man. i'll treasure and remember this day. it jus adds on to our book of memories. *smiles* and oh ya october is breast cancer awareness month.

radja-jujur

2005-10-15T02:05:00.000-07:00

written again 52 minutes later.....

ok i just got to blog abt this!!! after posting da post below, which was minutes ago, i went blog hopping. somehow i hop and hop upon this particular blog. i was taken back by the layout. and so i began reading the girl's entries. n i saw him!! i've not seen him for years!! since i was 16? boy that was 3 yrs ago jus when he had started his ns. apparently, that was his gf blog. oh my god, what happen R? i thought we had an amazing connection together. you even asked if it was possible for us to date at that time. i'm jus confused abt what happen 3 yrs back that just stop our friendship. is it becos if what happen that night? well, we both knew da risk and we even said"I'll take da risk" together. i'm a little annoyed. i jus wan to know what happen. i treasure friendship very much.

as i'm writing this post, my two brothers are busy playing soccer on x-box. guys. i'm gonna miss them. afterall, they are gonna get married soon and i can see how they are treasuring these few mths before their 'big day'. no, its not all bout da bachelorhood. but its about being at home. they are all gonna have their own life soon and yeah i bet i'm gonna cry a river on their wedding day. i'm gonna miss being pampered by them. they are, very nice brothers anyone can ever ask for. i love them sooo much. n oh ya + my first bro too. its been a hell of an exprience growing up with 3 guys+my dad=4 guys. i jus wished my sis had been there, but yeah i guess some things happen for some reason. and i will always redha with anything that god gives me.

anways, i need to do something with my hair!!ideas anyone? i dont think i'll be able to update da blog for a while. will be busy settling da fasting mths's business. 15,000 here i come.

even da blog is testing my patience

2005-10-13T06:10:00.000-07:00

i've read other blogs complaining abt how blogger have been giving problems to them. now its my turn. i'm trying to fix my layout and i jus cant preview da changes. so yeah there u go. my blog is not gonna be user friendly at da moment.

and so da guest have arrived at my house. its two this time. i'm okay with S at home cos i'm so used to having her at home. its M that i'm a bit uncomfartable with.i have to be extra friendly with her cos its her first time here. but trying to provide good hospitality + bein' "extra friendly" all da time(for a mth actually) is so damn bloody tiring lah. i dont know y i'm behavin so hostile towards her. is it me again? let's jus see. i cant believe i skip sahur cos M was there.

that woman is being such a bitch at work. i dont even know what's her name. but its okay i can still handle her. everybody there hates her and i really have to give it up to one of my colleagues for sayin "Adios Bitch!" to her. that was so freakin funny at that moment.

sunday morning

2005-10-09T05:34:00.000-07:00

everybody's gettin on my nerves. am i gettin angry over da slightest thing or is it them? watever. i'm pissed.

I'm still not done yet with da layout

2005-10-08T14:11:00.000-07:00

okok i know its them again. i like da jacket!!! i wanna get them!! notice da similarity? both had this wide strap thingy at da bottom. i loike...

i'm still not done yet with da layout. well, initially i had no idea on what concept to go for and somehow or rather it came naturally when i was browsing thru' da net for pictures. so yeah i think i have an idea of what to design for da blog. anyways, the week has been pretty... enduring i would say. endurance at work, endurance at home and also endurance with my mum's customers.. which part of my sentence that they dont understand?

customer:"can i order xxxx throu you?"
me:"i'm sorry but you cant cos i don't know what's my mum's schedule is like"
customer:"oh like that.."
me:"y dont i give you my mum's no n you can speak to her directly."
customer:"but i'm good friend with your mum u know. last yr i wan to order but it was fully booked"
me:"ya.. but u still have to go direct to her, i cant make any decisions here"
customer:"but i wan to order can or not..blah blah blah yada yada yada"

so which part of my sentence you think they dont understand? errggh. double errggh-ness. y am i always in customer service.

antm

2005-10-06T22:27:00.000-07:00

antm

*tyra lookin good as she always does. she's beauty with da brains. n my new idol, naima!*

*i've been a big fan of her since i-dont-know-when. she's beauty with da voice"

i'm totally voting for naima. actually i already know who won the fourth season of america's next top model but i lets just not say it huh. but i've been a real fan of naima since da first episode. this girl is so edgy. she has her own style and still looks good even with a mawhawk hair. she's really a natural born beauty. imagine her being bald headed, she still looks good!! n yeah, i jus like da way she brings herself in da show. i cant wait for da fifth season. season one, two, three was jus as awesome too. but i'm not a big fan of da winners. actually i thought they only had three seasons until i surfed da internet and found out that its already in da fourth season. well, u go naima! n yeah, i love tyra too. + beyonce.

deepa

2005-10-05T06:03:00.000-07:00

walkathon ppl

work was fine yesterday. met up with cuz after werk. he changed so much. i guess fatherhood really changes oneself. he's more responsible now. we talked about life and i can see he's really working hard for his wife and kid. i'm so proud of you naz.

after that i started my walkathon all da way from bugis to mustafa centre. its been a long time since i've walked. eversince secondary sch times. at that time, i used to walk from my house all da way to orchard. maybe running had something to do with it. because i hated running, it made me lazy to walk. but walking is seriously nice. it gives me da time to think. jus think abt anything. and yesterday, while walking from bugis to mustafa, i had thought about what i wanna achieved for da fasting month. yeah i came up with quite a few on da list. hope i can achieve it.

mustafa was packed with ppl doing last minute grocery shopping. i didnt get my baby kailan!!! so i settled down on long beans and some finger food. it was all good, just had them for sahur. on my way back to home from mustafa, made a pitstop at da deepavali bazaar. man if only i had a cam. everything there were so beautiful. tremendously beautiful. glittering.

reached home at midnight and what did i do? well let da pic tell ya.. anyways, Happy Fasting to all da Muslims..

*nail polish are out since its fastin mth. so henna was my replacement! needed to cover up those floorball injuries badly*

yay

2005-10-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

yayness

sunday was spent with izzah n my family. met iz at our usual place. glad u like da present girl!! well, we are all nineteen now. oops. ok well except for me. not yet. but we are all nineteen tis yr!! how time flies. it felt like just yesterday we celebrated our fifteen bday. when we were going nuts over neoprints and freddie prinze jr. but i'm still nuts abt freddie tho'. anyways, here are da pics taken.

*7 yrs of friendship n still counting...*

*i dont know wats with toilets. but we seem to like toilets a lot. right iz?*

and after that was megawarnaria for me, mum, bro and kak leila. da show was funny. i was laughing da whole time. saw lots of familiar faces. shall go for it next yr.

*in da car, lying on my mum's lap waiting for kak leila*

*ok i was really bored*

jas

2005-10-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

wedges?

i kept imagining all sort of things just now. after hearing abt haikal's fren incident, i get da shiver abt riding bikes. jus hearing abt it jus makes me scared. i was holding on to da handles below da seats da whole time! alhamdulilah i reached home safely. met mira at parkway. kecoh! girl, this is da first time i got sesat twice in a day!!haha.. but we got ourselves new shoes.. or is it sandals? ok footwear. we got ourselves new footwear!! from none other than charles n keith...

*ok i know i make a bad photographer, but at least i managed to capture da strings from da charles & keith bags!*

met my family at geylang after that. da first thing that jasrul asked when he saw me was,"kak noi, mane abg tu? jasrul nak main game skateboard dier ah. abg tu strong eh kak noi. dier blh angkat jasrul" well, i knew who he was referring to. it was him. cos back last year, we had went to geylang bazaar together with my little cousin. he had let jasrul played with his phone. i was stunned. really. i didnt expect da little kid to remember an incident that happen nearly a yr ago. well, i jus replied"ah ah, dier strong." da night turned out well, da guys got their baju kurong n me n my mum had ours tailor made. all was well until it happen again. my brother warned me again. he saw da box of ciggies. my sis-in-law told me that if he catches it da next time, he's gonna do something. i'll try to stop. gimme time.

*this is a baby baju kebaya. it looks big here but it's damn tiny in real life!! courtesy of my bro's hand*

*da cakes that i baked for da darlings at da kindergarten*

really sad

2005-10-01T02:20:00.000-07:00

down da hill

woke up at seven today to bake cakes. i was irritated cos i was enjoying my sleep. n wats worse, da house phone kept ringing n ringing. i was about to fuck da person upside down but i didnt. cos it was my uncle!!! aparrently his bike had broken down and he needed someone to come n pick him up. at last, he called for da towing service. da cakes were for some kindergarten kids. its okay, i forgive you darlings for making me wake up so early in da morning.

i've been quarelling a lot with mum. i'm tired of quarelling. now i just keep quiet. but i guess da anger still shows in my actions and expressions. i jus dont wanna make things worse. its just that sometimes, i jus wish she knew how me n my brothers worry for her health. it not that we're plain lazy. da real fact is that, each time we hurry her to go home is because we want her to have enough rest. but she just cant see it. i jus dont know wat to say anymore. i jus cried in silence while i was helping her. i know she saw it. we always walk back home together and i would sometimes hold her hand, my other hand would be holding stuff that she would wanna bring back. but today, we were walking metres apart. i was walking ahead, she was far right behind. i wanted to take da lift up first, but when i saw how she walked with difficulties, i jus froze there. waited for her.

i'm not complaining but i'm jus sad that things are this way now. ever since da birth of da shop, things changed. everybody's devoted to da shop. i know it's to earn money. but aren't we overworking? i have so much to say but heck, i'm too sad to even type. and to add on to it, they got rings.

busy

2005-09-28T21:44:00.000-07:00

j.p.bumble bee

i like my new work place. hope it will stay that way for as long as i'm working there. life's been pretty busy nowadays. well, money makes da world go round. everything is abt money. well not everything, but almost. first day was alright. ramadhan is approaching. i hope it goes well too. my leg is killing me. there's training tomorrow. hope my running improves. going to da shop now. n please, don't let me run into another crazy person. pretty plz.

race

2005-09-26T01:12:00.000-07:00

Race

*my darling nephew on da scrambler.he's gonna be a rider one day. my bro in da dark blue shirt talkin to his friend*

went to da F1 something something i-cant-remember-da-name race. went with my brother, my nephew n da birthday boy yandy. n so there i was in da van stuck in da middle of two kids. but they were such darlings so i didnt mind having them around me. even when i had to "pangku" da both of them on my laps.

there were kids riding on mini scramblers. young hot mothers hanging out in groups. girlfriends watching their guys on da tracks. da van had turned into a mini shade. i was lying so comfartably in there where i can get da full view of da race goin on. all in all, it was fun. but i feel bad about leavin da two kids with my bro. it must have been hard for him to drive. sorry bro, i had to help mum with da order. shit i stil feel bad.

thinking abt it again

2005-09-25T01:49:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raye.

i almost fainted in hrc. da songs are boring. lucky liyana brought her mp3. funny how a girl can
listen to mp3 in a club where da sound system was practically blasting your ears off. picture that. lets sum up da week shall we.

this week had been pretty rough i say. training was hard. i'm breathless when i start running. i've never liked running. walking is better. i deleted him in my friendster. our photos, da shirt n bags, all da things that reminded me of him- all in a box now. n to that manila or philippine guy outside devils, thanks a lot. altho your intentions really disgust me, but u came at the right time. saved me from shedding tears.

ps: caramelle, dont worry. there's no animosity between us. *smiles*. If there were any, it will be on him, not you.

ohhhhh

2005-09-19T23:39:00.000-07:00

pimply week

its been a long time since i updated. still, i dont know wat da hell happen to my blog. but watever, its back now n yeah sorry for da missing links n tagboard. i'm jus lazy to really change da whole layout. anyways, it damn hard to see da words in this spoilt-gonna-be srewed screen. yeah da colour chip in my comp monitor got burnt. the whole screen is just damn bright now. i'll just summarised what i wanna say..

i like this layout. gives me da motivation. i didnt really noticed da theme. i had only fell in love with da strawberry pic.
i'm bursting with pimples. mum's getting worried too.
went to da supermarket with mom. i think i got too carried away doing the grocery shopping.
will be goin for a camp tomorrow. hope it turn out well.
i saw a lot of pretty boys!!!
in fact i just saw one on friendster before typing this.
i had a fun time rushing orders for customers.
i need to club badly.

well, that's pretty much what i have to say. fasting month is coming soon. as usual, its gonna be a hectic month for da whole family. i've proposed a business idea to my mum, she's okay with it. i just need to try out da recipe. if it turns out well, i'll go ahead with it. insyallah.

2005-09-08T21:13:00.000-07:00

As promised, here are da pics.

*chinablack*

*da next day was a little pop-in, into liyana's chalet*

*nope it's not me. it liyana.winks*

*now this is me. player?not.vodkha?yes.*

*with my baos for our zoo outing*

*after a meal at rosini's (damn i put on weight)*

*ah meng anyone?(its ah meng right?)*

*pit stop no 1 along da way to see da baboons*

*haha..me n nad with our ponchos*

*pit stop no 2, in da beautiful inspired jungle toilet*

*finally got our long awaited elephant ride, along with an indian rider at da front*

*da kueh i cook for mira's open hse*

*is n sharain who claimed they saw n waved at mira*

*going nuts in da purply room*

*damn, put on weight!!*